given a chance but not a choice.

i've already written this blog entry more than a year ago. but since i made this new blog, i wanna keep my first ever entry. so, here it is. .

originally dated dec. 26, '06

my first entry.. im not really sure what to write about but the first thing that came to my mind was this.. it was more than a year after i prayed so hard for this certain thing. completing the simbang gabi means one thing: making a wish.. and so i did.. i wished to pass the admission exam i took up four months before December.. every normal student's wish right? passing the UPCAT.. imagine my surprise when i passed.. gone insane, maybe.. or should i say dreaming of a new environment, a new home, new friends.. of lots of things.. but not all things are given to you.. you can't be happy all the time.. in short, i wasn't allowed to go there.. so damn pissed! in despair.. i was given a chance but not a choice!! the decision wasn't mine.. do parents really know the best for their kids?? not all the time, i don't think so.. i'll never get over this one.. when all you're dreamin' of was right in front of you but all i've done was to turn my back from it.. pretty darn thing to do huh?? i have no choice.. and i let the chance pass me by.. but life goes on.. why can't i forget about the whole damn thing?? wishing still..